Hello to all who have picked up this book or are viewing on line. My book represents my own personal journey through Life and my own thoughts and gradual understandings of this wonderful and glorious LIFE that we all lead. It is culmination of the last twenty years or so, it is a very personal journal. My Life has been full of Choice Points and this book has been born out of those Particular choices that I have made over that time and the effect that they have had on my Life. My hope is that these insights and thoughts resonate in one way or another for you, and bring you to a new level of your own understandings of Life Itself and how it can work it’s Magic through and with you. I am grateful to Balbao Press for giving me the opportunity to be able to finally share these insights and experiences with you.
Genesis of my Book
As I look back on my life I realise that there have been several Spiritual markers along the way that have helped me gain insight into Life Itself and my life in particular
In April 1988 I was in the UK visiting my Mum and Dad. We went for a holiday up into Scotland the weather was surprisingly good , cold but glorious sunshine. The Loch’s were at there wonderful best , no Loch Ness Monster though. Close to where we stayed were the Glen Coe Mountain Range. There was still snow on the top so we took a ride up the mountain on a T- Bar .I was scared as I felt really precarious and scared as at that time I was afraid of heights. The weather was foggy so luckily I couldn’t see how high I was. It was absolutely breath-taking at the top. New white snow and lots of locals skiing, some even in what looked like Board Shorts! We stayed for a while playing in the snow then it was time to go back down. By then the fog had lifted to reveal an awe inspiring view of an astonishingly magnificent vista. I had my first Soul experience on that journey my heart lifted to levels I never knew I had and an instant understanding of the magnificence of our Souls. That same year my Partner and I were offered one of the great business opportunities of that time a Video shop. We took the plunge and bought the shop. We left our secure jobs in the Bank arranged finance and off we sailed into unknown territory. I love movies I always have so this was my dream occupation. One of the many advantages was that I had a lot more time for other things. In 1990 I saw a TV show that had Bishop John Shelby Spong talking about his book ‘Rescuing the Bible from Fundamentalism’ He impressed me very much with his obvious love of The Bible, however as he saw that The Bible was being used to corrupt the central message of Christianity. Love and Tolerance. I bought the book. Reading it was revelation after revelation, I found it quite extra-ordinary how much I didn’t know about my own Bible and the circumstances under which it was written. This book in conjunction with my experience at Glen Coe effectively started me off in earnest on my present Spiritual quest for Who I Really am and how to become more of that. A little time after that I was on holidays and looking in one of the local book shops I came across a small book entitled ‘Life After Life’ by Dr. Raymond Moody. This book was yet another revelation for me. It confirmed to me that the traditional ‘Three Score and Ten’ life expectation that we have all grown up with , was as I had always suspected, far to limited. It brought me to a much better understanding of Death and Life, yet again enlarging my knowledge and increasing my growing appetite for understanding of Who I Am and Who we All are. In 1995 I had what The Queen described as an ‘Ánnus Horribilus’ on all levels .My partner had gone on to a new love, I was out of work and my Kidney functions were rapidly going down hill. I needed help so I took myself off to the local Women’s Health Centre for counseling. Whilst in the waiting room one day I saw a copy of a book with an intriguing title. It was called ‘Transmissions from The Pleiades’ Channeled by Jani King. I picked it up and started to read. It was fascinating, it was a Q and A style book and I found a copy for myself. I loved the ideas and new thoughts and ways of being the entity called P’ TAAH described. A short time later I found a book Called ‘P’TAAH THE GIFT’ Which Contains 145 pages of the best quotes and messages from the original book. I treasure this book and it’s 145 quotes of deep wisdom and fun. In Mid July1996 I was in dyer straights, I was on Kidney Dialysis and on The ‘List’ for receiving a new Kidney. At that time I was told the average wait for a Kidney would be about three years. I was given a choice of three alternatives. Heamo-Dialysis , Peritoneal Dialysis or death. I chose not to die but have Peritoneal Dialysis as I could do it myself plus I was scared of having the Heamo Dialysis .The thought of being ‘Hooked’ up to the machine for six hours every three days was far to scary and limiting. Over this time I had enriched my Spiritual growth buying and reading books by John Gray, Eckhard Tolle. Marianne Williamson and others. In early January 1997 browsing in Angus and Roberson bookstore in Coffs Harbour, I came across a book that would change my life. ‘Conversations with God’ by Neale Donald Walsch . Every sentence every word made sense to me , suddenly God jumped out at me and made me laugh and cry and best of all gave me the most incredible insight into my inner self and why I had placed myself in this current very restrictive place. That was January 11th 1997. On January 14th I received THE call from the hospital telling me they had found a Kidney for me. From that time to this I have no trouble at all with my good Friend ‘Kevin’ Kidney. In December 2002 my Daughter gave birth to my Grand-Daughter. OK so what’s life changing about that . You see I was there in I was there with her for the whole 40 hours of her labour , from the first twinge, to her water’s breaking, I was there with her in the maternity ward at Royal Prince Alfred Hospital, helped sooth her and toilet her, whilst her husband slept for four hours. I brought her ice packs for the pain, went and got bed p pans and helped go to the Loo held her hand and soothed her brow. After an horrific two and a half hour last stage labour with the baby spine to spine and the pain so affecting both Mother and child as the babies head was acing the wrong way, the head midwife put her hand in and physically turned the head so that she could be born immediately out popped my wonderful glorious little girl. This was and still is the greatest and most powerful experience I have ever had, it brought a huge outpouring of emotion more than I had ever experienced and will never forget. I was the first person she’ saw’ with those bleary eyes and I honestly believe that her soul and mine connected, communicating the thought ‘It’s good to see you again’. The Aboriginal women call these moments Sacred Women’s Business’ I now understand exactly what they mean. In 2004 I was diagnosed with Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma and out of that adventure this book came into being. Introduction
Life is about Hope. Life is about Love, Life is what we make of it. Life is not about the Destination, Life is about the Journey. This is my journey.
I’m Fiona I am 58 and I am Gay, over the last 23 years I have been on an extraordinary journey that has led me to some of the most incredible revelations about WHO I REALLY AM and how I fit into this beautiful tapestry of life. What follows is a very personal Journal about my Journey , the revelations and insights I gained, and how by moving through this experience with love and positivity, I have come through with the sure knowledge that what we can gain from these times in our personal lives is absolutely the best knowing of all. Who We Really Are. I have read, considered and absorbed a needed to make our lives easier more complete and fulfilled. This knowledge will bring us to a whole new plane of existence. My hope for all who read this is that they can come to their own personal truth, their own ways and thoughts and most of all to realize what we as Human BEINGS can BE.
The majority of the first part of this work was written between the 21st January 2007 and the 15th February 2007 as part of a preparation exercise for a Patria King one week Quest for Life workshop that I attended in February 2007. It was originally titled Heart-ego-Head connection. It has grown and been added to over the last four years but the main inspirations and work were completed by February 2007. I have changed the names of the people mentioned in this work for privacy reasons.